I posted this on one other forum, but I believe I could target a few more bro's and seasoned guys in the know (not saying that those bro's aren't) on this great forum to try and deal with this issue that always swirls around in my head, Here goes.
I started using AAS around 1988 and up until then It wasn't really a huge deal for the fact that it's usage was pretty much low key and kept to certain circles. With the Olympic athletes getting popped around that time, and Reagan signing the anti steroid act in the same year I believe, the stigma of AAS has exponentially increased, throw in baseball, football, swimming, cycling, a bunch more Olympians failing tests, movie stars,etc etc it has blown clear the fuk up. Kind of like me in 1988 with test and a little pill called d-bol.
I come from a football past starting from little guys through 3 years in college. In the early 80's AAS use was pretty much not talked about,at least at my little University. I was so uneducated on the subject it was sickening. We would say shit when we saw some huge dude like " I bet he's on those steroids", "those steroids" ridiculous! Anyway stayed pretty much the same until 88 when I picked up a muscle & fitness mag and told myself I want to be huge like these guys. so I tried every fukin supp. these guys pitched (bullshit) and lifted harder than ever and reading every bit of info I could (less the internet of course) on building muscle and a lot of reading material included AAS info. I will shorten this part up real quick in saying that I hooked up with a dude ( after that dude I used various sources, never an individual that knew me) at my gym and started my AAS road and secret in late 88. I'm dead sure some of you older guys started before then, but I guess I lived a sheltered life up until then.
I started playing league softball around that time taking my little secret weapon with me of course, with around the 20lbs of muscle I had gained. I fukin just crushed the ball. I kept my secret AAS use to myself although knowing a couple of guys on my team and other teams as well were keeping the same secret. I knew these guys pretty well and AAS was never discussed, if someone said " God dude are you taking roids" I would just laugh and say something like "Yeah right" or "Idon't know what a roid looks like" and change the subject. I quit playing around 2005 with knee issues and a host of other physical issues that come with age with god knows how many cycles under my belt during my playing time. I once again kept my secret for all those years, with more and more guys on my team and other teams blowing up as the years went by. My answer to all the "roid" questions remained "yeah Right" or "I just like going to the gym..OK!!" I've been at my current job for 10 years and love it but I could easily lose it if someone was pissed at me for some reason and say's you need to test stone for PED'S. With the state of AAS now and the more informed (armchair) people are (internet) with countless before and after steroid pics of people in the limelight, sports figures, movie stars, and pretty much anyone who is newsworthy, a lot of folks feel they can pick out a AAS user a mile away. The folks I work with included. I'm not near as large as I was 8-10 years ago but yet I still get the same old questions. My point of this whole fukin thing is I have always wanted to just say "Fuk yes I use AAS and the use has made me feel great about myself in a lot of ways like confidence in social and work settings, self esteem, the ability to be the all out best in past and some current sport endeavors...so... maybe their hard on your health, but it's my health so go fuk youself and the thoughts you may have", but I don't, I keep laughing and shrugging it off. SO after 25 years of AAS use and still in fear for the facts that prevail, losing my job, more then likely my marriage, my relationship with my daughter, possible loss of friends and reputation, 2 yep TWO people know my secret, my son, and my best friend of 40 years...oh...and the hundreds or thousands of you fine folks! lol
How do you guys deal with your "secret" at work, home, or all the activities you do, and don't say "I don't give a fuk what people think" or" just don't worry about it" because you do care and you do worry (jail)! either in a positive or negative way, you probably don't mind how guys respect your stature and in the way they look at you(not that way you gay fuk), the way women notice you from across the room, but if someone asks you straight out "are you on roids" what would you say? not the random Joe or Jane Blow, then who does give a fuk! but a co-worker or someone close. The stigma of society won't leave us alone to do what we like to do. Hence the anonymity of these sites. Enough said.
I started using AAS around 1988 and up until then It wasn't really a huge deal for the fact that it's usage was pretty much low key and kept to certain circles. With the Olympic athletes getting popped around that time, and Reagan signing the anti steroid act in the same year I believe, the stigma of AAS has exponentially increased, throw in baseball, football, swimming, cycling, a bunch more Olympians failing tests, movie stars,etc etc it has blown clear the fuk up. Kind of like me in 1988 with test and a little pill called d-bol.
I come from a football past starting from little guys through 3 years in college. In the early 80's AAS use was pretty much not talked about,at least at my little University. I was so uneducated on the subject it was sickening. We would say shit when we saw some huge dude like " I bet he's on those steroids", "those steroids" ridiculous! Anyway stayed pretty much the same until 88 when I picked up a muscle & fitness mag and told myself I want to be huge like these guys. so I tried every fukin supp. these guys pitched (bullshit) and lifted harder than ever and reading every bit of info I could (less the internet of course) on building muscle and a lot of reading material included AAS info. I will shorten this part up real quick in saying that I hooked up with a dude ( after that dude I used various sources, never an individual that knew me) at my gym and started my AAS road and secret in late 88. I'm dead sure some of you older guys started before then, but I guess I lived a sheltered life up until then.
I started playing league softball around that time taking my little secret weapon with me of course, with around the 20lbs of muscle I had gained. I fukin just crushed the ball. I kept my secret AAS use to myself although knowing a couple of guys on my team and other teams as well were keeping the same secret. I knew these guys pretty well and AAS was never discussed, if someone said " God dude are you taking roids" I would just laugh and say something like "Yeah right" or "Idon't know what a roid looks like" and change the subject. I quit playing around 2005 with knee issues and a host of other physical issues that come with age with god knows how many cycles under my belt during my playing time. I once again kept my secret for all those years, with more and more guys on my team and other teams blowing up as the years went by. My answer to all the "roid" questions remained "yeah Right" or "I just like going to the gym..OK!!" I've been at my current job for 10 years and love it but I could easily lose it if someone was pissed at me for some reason and say's you need to test stone for PED'S. With the state of AAS now and the more informed (armchair) people are (internet) with countless before and after steroid pics of people in the limelight, sports figures, movie stars, and pretty much anyone who is newsworthy, a lot of folks feel they can pick out a AAS user a mile away. The folks I work with included. I'm not near as large as I was 8-10 years ago but yet I still get the same old questions. My point of this whole fukin thing is I have always wanted to just say "Fuk yes I use AAS and the use has made me feel great about myself in a lot of ways like confidence in social and work settings, self esteem, the ability to be the all out best in past and some current sport endeavors...so... maybe their hard on your health, but it's my health so go fuk youself and the thoughts you may have", but I don't, I keep laughing and shrugging it off. SO after 25 years of AAS use and still in fear for the facts that prevail, losing my job, more then likely my marriage, my relationship with my daughter, possible loss of friends and reputation, 2 yep TWO people know my secret, my son, and my best friend of 40 years...oh...and the hundreds or thousands of you fine folks! lol
How do you guys deal with your "secret" at work, home, or all the activities you do, and don't say "I don't give a fuk what people think" or" just don't worry about it" because you do care and you do worry (jail)! either in a positive or negative way, you probably don't mind how guys respect your stature and in the way they look at you(not that way you gay fuk), the way women notice you from across the room, but if someone asks you straight out "are you on roids" what would you say? not the random Joe or Jane Blow, then who does give a fuk! but a co-worker or someone close. The stigma of society won't leave us alone to do what we like to do. Hence the anonymity of these sites. Enough said.
