Its funny how things work the doctor that did the surgery turn me away because in his own words "the tumor is on or near your femoral artery we cannot recommend surgery because it is too risky" come back in 6 months and if it has grown we will be forced to take it out and you will probably lose the use of your left leg. I personally think him sending me away for 6 months was his way of saying get your house in order because you're fucked. I have 15 dogs and 80 cows to take care of I don't know what I would have done. A lot of people would be like oh fuck that but I was in so much pain at that point I could give a shit paralyzed or not. I just needed to get a break from the 24/7nerve pain. I hadn't slept more than 2-3 hours at any given time for about 8 years. I was run ragged man I can understand why older people who are in constant pain want to just end it because I've been there. A scalpel and 5 hours later I'm all fixed up. A friend of mine that is a neurosurgeon himself said that the doctor who did the surgery must have been a brainiac and that I dodged a bullet. I would have to agree. I don't know what it is but there's something I have to do I believe we are all here for a reason.
