That is awesome. Thank you. It is such a fight against yourself. I let myself get too far out of shape an have really beat myself up about it. I didn't want that to happen but fell into the trap of having to eat 5000 calories a day to grow when just like you pointed out, I just need to be a better me than last year. I have the luxury of doing this at an amateur level and mostly for fun, I need to remember that.
I wish sometimes I could see myself through another's eyes sometimes. Even the other day at the gym, a guy I look at and think "he's huge" comes up to me to ask me how I train calves. Something I guess I take for granted. And to hear someone like that say I'm a big mofo is almost weird.
Thanks dowork, kuntrykok tsizemore slim cole and the rest of you guys checking in on me. This kind of support is immeasurable.